This year has flown by! I like to take time to reflect on everything that has come and gone in 2019. A big lesson for me this year is that it’s ok to make mistakes.
I realize that I hold myself to a very high standard. I strive to be “perfect” in both my personal life and at work. I aim to manage whatever I can at home in my marriage, and in different relationships so that things will not go wrong or astray from ideals. At all my workplaces I aim to do everything correctly and be regarded as a top employee. Perhaps it’s the praise and regard that comes with great work results that drive me. It could also be the sense of security that you get when everything is going perfectly.
I really beat myself up when I make a mistake. I would feel like I’ve broken the perfect image of myself as an employee, wife, or friend. I feel very disappointed and question every detail as to how I could’ve changed my actions to prevent it. I sulk and want to crawl into bed, wishing it never happened. Sometimes I also try to find a reason or excuse as to why it happened, and try to shift the blame to something else. Does anyone relate to how I feel?
What I am still in the process of accepting is that I’m human, no different from everyone else. There is no one who is perfect and will never make mistakes. I find peace to the unease and disappointment from making mistakes in Scripture. God reminds me that there was only one man who was perfect, and it was Jesus. I may never be perfect, but there are other qualities that are more important to strive for. Instead of focusing on the idea of perfection in worldly things, I can press on towards righteousness through my faith in Jesus. He has already paid the price for the mistakes I’ve done, am doing, and will do. I can be at peace knowing that if I make another mistake, it’s ok. I just need to pick myself up and grow from the experience.
Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.Philippians 3:12-14
It’s not a great feeling to realize you’ve done something wrong and admit to it. It’s alright to feel remorse, but God simply wants us to learn from it. It’s during these times when my humility is tested and I acknowledge that perfection is not all that there is. When we accept that, God will only lift us up and guide us to the greater goal of Christlikeness.
The Lord upholds all who are falling and raises up all who are bowed down.Psalms 145:14
It’s an ongoing journey, but I’m glad that it’s a lesson that I’ve come to terms with and am working on. What’s your biggest lesson of 2019?
Until next time,